Sunday morning was a train wreck for me. It began early, no sleep and up before light. Outside, rain and ice fell like trillions of glassy needles. And there is nothing beautiful about that sound either, instead it’s oppressive and chaffing. Then I had a get-out-of-bed tug-of-war with my 5-year-old. He eventually got up, but I added more weight to his dad baggage. So, when I got to church, I was flustered and wondering if God could even use me–tired, distracted and a crummy dad.
Still, I focused on leading and teaching Brentwood for the next few hours. During the message, I paused to review the scene of Abram in Genesis 15, the moment Abram questioned whether God could still use his broken down body to start a family/nation. So, what does God do? He takes him outside and shows him the countless stars above and all around. Then, while Abram searched the sky, God tells him that his influence will be eternal. Once again, Abram trusted God to use him to impact the world. A lot is crammed inside these few verses, but what stands out the most is how God used Creation to send Abram a very persuasive message: I chose you and I will follow through.
Flash forward to Sunday night: After my offbeat morning and the all-day rain had made a swamp of things, I took a drive to clear my head. The night was cold and bullied me to go back home, to just get under the covers and sleep off the gloom, but I took that drive instead. For sure, I was supposed to witness something. What, I did not know, but it was out there waiting. So, I drove.
Not very far from home is when I realized it. The sky was clear, no more clouds and haze, but a black chaos overhead with light-pearls poking through like ice pick holes. It was brilliant. Almost immediately, I recalled the story of Abram. Then I knew that God was communicating something. What, though?
He said in my own internal voice,“Look at that sky. Just a reminder that I chose you for something, and I will follow through if you’ll trust me.”
Right then, I re-chose trust.
I can’t always say that I “get it” when God uses something peculiar, like a night sky, to encourage me; but when He does, I want to cherish it.
